73 days smoke free!!! Just had to share because I haven’t checked this app for a little bit and I was blown away by how far I have come . I would say half of the days are easy and half are really difficult and I still use nicotine mints and gum the amount depends on the day but on the whole it’s getting less. I am still shocked that I’m managing to stick with this and I’m truly proud of myself. Also I’m loving that I can say I haven’t smoked this year and as the days are ticking along being able to say this means more.
Stopping smoking is just one of many things that I’m either already doing or intending to do and every goal is something to make my body or mind healthier and stronger. I know that these objectives are contributing to me getting to become the person I want to be. Every piece of the puzzle matters and in the short term will help to get me through intensive trauma therapy and in the long term who knows, it’s actually not something I’ve thought about yet. I’m naturally an impatient person so that is also something I’m working hard on by trusting the choices I’m making and having faith in the path I’m walking and that at the very least my mental health will improve so that I can be a stronger more independent woman.
I want to thank everyone that has been following me on my journey to stronger mental health and huge thank you for you love, beautiful messages and support. #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthrecovery #ptsd #ptsdrecoveryjourney #complextrauma #complextraumarecovery #trusttheprocess #positivity #strength #love #betterhealth #patience #healthybodyhealthymind #journey #stopsmoking #stopsmokingstartliving

Even with the exercise my mental health is still a major battleground. The endorphines are a huge help as none of the many many medications I’ve tried have worked for me, they actually made me feel way worse.
I still have to plan and put things in place so that I can force myself out the door and even then it can all go to pot. So I’m having to respect my limitations whilst trying to push myself as hard as I am able. I was supposed to run yesterday but it took my two hours to force myself out of bed and I couldn’t force myself out that door no matter how hard I tried it was all too much. I though today would be the same as I couldn’t get myself out of my bed and face the world, it took an hour to get me out of the door and I almost turned around and went back home a few times. I truly pushed myself to my limit today mentally and physically every step was hard fought for so I’m really proud to of ran 11.5k running until my legs could go no further and I ran my fastest 10k.
Fighting against PTSD and complex trauma is a beast, one that frequently brings me to my knees but one I keep fighting anyway. #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #ptsd #ptsdawareness #ptsdrecovery #complextrauma #complextraumarecovery #running #runningmotivation #runningtherapy #10k #thisgirlisonfire #thisgirlcan #thisgirlcanrun

In the latest instalment of Emma’s midlife crisis she goes on her 1st hike. Encounters some serious beauty and surrounds herself in nature. At times it’s that quiet and there are no people around that she feels like the only soul on the planet.
Rivington pike loop is a challenging hike, the elevation gains at times had me hearing my heart in my ears and was really out of breath. The steep walk down was a huge challenge for me as I hate heights at one time I wouldn’t of had the courage to take such a steep route down so I’m really proud of myself for that. Some very boggy areas on the moors to navigate, again a new experience for me. Proud of myself for choosing my 1st route to challenge me to my limits as well as emersing myself in so much beauty. #mentalhealth #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #ptsd #ptsdawareness #ptsdrecovery #complextrauma #complextraumarecovery #hike #1sthikeever #hikelife #hikeuk #rivingtonpike #winterhill #lancashiremoors #nature #beauty #peace #calm #quietthechaos

Had a brutal night filled with really traumatic night terrors so all I wanted to do was wrap myself in my blanket and wallow in the darkness. I pushed myself really hard not to give in and help myself by getting out the door. My head gave me every reason not to go out and run but I fought back really fucking hard got myself out the door and get some exercise, fresh air and switch off the darkness and pain.
I’m really proud of my achievements today as they were fought for, trying to recover from complex trauma and PTSD is a tough and long road but on I’m determined to keep walking (or running). Go me!! Go sports!!!! #mentalhealth #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthrecovery #ptsd #ptsdawareness #ptsdrecovery #complextrauma #complextraumarecovery #running #tennis #parklife #exercise #freshair #thisgirlcan #thisgirlcanrun #gosports