Today I’m grateful that it’s no longer dark when I’m commuting to and from work.

I did something this week that was very difficult for me. I spoke to HR about my PTSD and panic attacks. They were very supportive. I brought up a colleague’s name since she supported me during a panic attack at work last week. They were happy to hear I had support and asked if anyone else in the office knew. I’m grateful to have people at work supporting me.

I don’t know when my body will finally believe the trauma is over. It’s truly exhausting.

Today the universe gave me a gift so I paid it forward.

I received a text from a kind person reaching out to let me know my package was delivered to their building by mistake. When I called the company to let them know what happened, they said they wouldn’t charge me again after already giving me a refund.

I sent the kind person a gift card. It’s treacherous out there + they didn’t have to walk over to me.

Thank you, universe!

Sending kindness out into the universe

Life is sometimes difficult. You may not know what someone is going through, but you can always be kind. I need extra kindness right now. Thank you.

I’ve been making up silly songs like singing what I’m doing. When I told my therapist a couple months ago, he said it’s definitely something to add to my self-care toolbox if it brings me joy. Turns out that singing has multiple health benefits.

Today while on a call with my boss, I sang some responses to him not realizing I was singing until after. I apologized but he said no need to apologize if it brings me joy. But I may want to curb it once back in the office.

Who walked the farthest distance outside today with hiking poles?

I did!

Fuck, I started to cry when I saw my watch had recorded 10 minutes of exercise. Luckily that was when a friend saw me sitting on a bench in the park. She was happy to see me out and about and walked home with me after many high-fives.

Achievement unlocked today: I walked to a doctor appointment about 3 blocks away with my cane.

Oh ya, I graduated from the walker to the cane a week ago.

It feels good to finally have a primary care physician again. I didn’t realize the toll it was taking on me.

Friends! My therapist and I set some goals yesterday to help nourish my soul and I achieved a goal!

Today I walked to the park near my place with my walker. It took 15 minutes but I did it. I had to stop many times to rest. A kind lady cheered me on after introducing herself.

It is a 3-minute walk to the park when I’m able-bodied.

Today I treated a friend to lunch on my patio since DoorDash sent me a coupon. She lives in my building + has helped me a lot over the past months.

I’ve been craving pizza since I gave up gluten so I had Panago’s GF crust. It was yummy. We had a nice chat outside enjoying our lunch. I propped my foot up on a chair with a pillow underneath but eventually my foot started swearing at me. Now I’m resting in bed with my leg propped up.

Bastard staples have been removed from my foot! I didn’t cry as much as the first time but they did give me twice as much Ativan this time.

Now I heal.